Background: I was in an abusive marriage where I had multiple miscarriages and when I hit my breaking point I decided for the safety of my child that I needed to terminate on the one pregnancy that progressed (I was high risk and had the cops called for DV multiple times before I was able to leave) I have a lot of feelings around it and it has been about 5 years since that abortion. While I want a baby, I couldn’t justify having an abuser as my child’s father. If you disagree, please don’t comment.

Now for the point: I had a miscarriage last month, and I don’t regret my prior decision, but I am nervous I won’t be successful with my new partner because of the history with prior pregnancies and now this one with him 5+ years later. I am mostly hoping for positive stories and outcomes?

I do have factor V Leiden and a homo MTHFR mutation on top of PCOS and Endo so getting and staying pregnant is a challenge. We have a plan based on the pregnancy I terminated because it progressed despite everything with HEAVY medical intervention and a lot of care on my part. I will be high risk with any pregnancy because of my medical history and pregnancy history.

I would like positive stories as I want to conceive with my healthy partner, but I struggle with my trauma. If anyone has experience with recurrent miscarriages who is up to offering me advice I would appreciate it, especially women who have the same conditions as I do.

Thank you!