I’m gonna say it. Treating your depression is fucking hard.

Treating your depression is fucking hard.

I have been diagnosed with severe clinical depression and it can be so bad I’ll sit in my filth, let my hair get matted to my head, and when I started having a bunch of health issues I was in pain 24/7 and it got so much worse I probably should have been checked in somewhere. and I’m so tired of it so I’m trying to fix it. It’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.

The depression meds DO help, and the last med I was on WAS working but there were some intense side effects and I feel like SHIT. I feel so out of it, tbh I kinda feel stupid. There will be things I type out that don’t make a shit worth of sense. I am exhausted down to my bones, but I can’t sleep right. Nobody talks about this part of seeking help and trying medication.

You go and see doctors to get help and get medicated, you notice this medicine improves your life but you’re having extreme highs and lows and are just out of your damn mind. Then you try another med that might be better. Might be so much fucking worse. There’s an adjustment period where you just feel HIGH and not like the “oooh this is nice.” It’s more like “Ooooh I feel like I have dementia, I’m fucking Dory the fish, and idk what the fuck shit is going on.” Like, trust me there ain’t no drug dealers selling Prozac and Zoloft.

I am TIRED y’all. THIS IS HARD.