Trying to be there for everyone

I’m 32 weeks pregnant. I scheduled to have a c-section followed by a hysterectomy at the end of the month. I have CPP and PAS so I’m on rest but I’m not confined to bed rest just modified. I’ve just been feeling crappy the past couple of days. Like my stomach hadn’t felt good but it’s not contractions or anything. I think maybe anxiety?

My husband left for church this morning and I didn’t find out till I was startled awake by a phone call (I’ll get to that in a moment). I’m glad he went but he doesn’t tell me he is and just goes. I always find out after he’s gone. We need to have a talk about his communication. It worries me because with not feeling well and he leaves me with our 3 year old for 4 hours when he does this. The church he picked for us is an hour away so if anything happens (I start bleeding) he’s an hour away. Just makes me nervous. Minor I know. I’m trying be supportive.

Then my brother who called me this morning. Last April his girlfriend moved out of his place and we found out he had been in an abusive relationship the past 6.5 years. Side note: she broke it off in August 2022 but continued to live in his house. She was physically and mentally abusive to him. He called this morning because he’s having a hard time. He and I are really close so he relies on me for support. He’s been working through it. He called this morning because he was feeling sad. He misses her. Which I know is apart of healing from the abuse. I’m always here for him to talk no matter how “just let her go” I feel about it.

I’m just having a hard time because I have so much on my own plate with health issues this pregnancy (whole other story). I have a very big surgery coming up that I’m not really feeling supported with. My baby is going to be in the hospital after because he’ll be born early. Yet, I’m trying to be supportive of those around me. I guess I’m just having a hard time handling it all. King of just need someone to talk to. Have some supportive conversation.