I feel used and bothered 😭

If I said long story short I’d be lying…. I’ll try to be direct as possible though…: Before my grandma passed away she was the bank for everybody!!! I feel like since she’s gone that title has fell on me.

My mom has been at the same full time job for as long as I’ve been living. She isn’t paid nearly enough as she should given the time she’s been employed. However, the pay is decent and it pays her bills. A few years ago I was unemployed at the time and my husband was caring for me and paying all the bills. My mom and stepdad and sister took my niece to auditions at Disney and apparently they were not financially prepared. My sister can’t seem to keep a job.

My mom asked if I could loan her money and I told her that I didn’t have any money and left it at that, later she asked if I could ask my husband if he could loan them money. I did, and he delivered. Fast forward>> I landed a good job that paid decent money and my mom would ask me for money every time I got paid. It was getting so bad that my husband would get pissed because she’s always asking for money. I eventually laid off of “loaning” her money but felt bad cause she’s my mom. Well, I made a comment one day telling her that my sister asked for money but she always pay me back so I have no problem helping her out. Since that day my mom stopped asking for money for 2/3 years…. The next time she reached out it was to see if I could get her hair done. Well since we go to the same stylist I told her that I had already paid it the last time I was there and it was just a token of love. Ok,,,, now just a couple weeks ago we’re on the phone talking and the auto shop calls and tells her she needed a part. I told her she should get the part so she isn’t stranded on side of the road. She says she doesn’t have the money and I asked how much was the part and asked if she needed me to pay until she pay me back…. Well, it’s been over a month and I haven’t got a dime!! In fact she mentioned how she’s going to treat herself with a nice handbag … on another note, my niece is ALWAYS asking for money and she stays with my mom, my cashapp statement made me wanna cry after seeing how much money I dish out to them. Am I wrong for feeling used or should I keep helping and stop complaining… mind you I have my own family to care for. What should I do??? 😭 please no evil comments I’ve already beat myself up enough about it.