Having C-section alone

hazel

I am scheduled for my C-section in 2 1/2 weeks. This is my 4th child and it’s been a complete nightmare because of my cheating bf. I’ve been so alone dealing with the worst emotions I’ve ever felt. He stays playing with my emotions but really not putting in the actual effort. I have my moms support but I need her to watch my other baby’s while I’m in the hospital. I have family that could be there but a part of me just wants to be alone so I can be alone with my baby as we have gone through this traumatizing experience together. Is that selfish of me? He thinks he deserves to be there as the father but I don’t want to feel that stress. Has anyone gone through a Caesarian alone?