I hate pcos

Hi, I have a wonderful 2 year old baby and we have been trying for 9 months to have another. I recently got diagnosed with PCOS. My period was regular for the last 3 months and this month we were so excited because I actually ovulated and my period decided to be late. I’ve had 3 days of spotting when I wipe but that’s it. I hate that if my period is late I get my hopes up and it’s just because of my PCOS. I’m also just spotting and 2% of me is holding out hope that I could still be pregnant even though I know I’m not. I guess just wishful thinking. Im just so aggravated and disappointed. End of rant.