Idk where to start. Found out I was pregnant. Went to the doctors cause I felt something fall out of me. The doctors couldn’t find a baby. My HCG level was 3889. They want more blood work. So I went in and did more blood work and it went down to 827 and I know what that means. But my doctor wants me to go on bed rest until my next ultrasound on Monday. And a part of me is hoping my baby is still in there. But an another part of me. Knows that it is not there anymore. And it’s my fault I feel so lost and so depressed and I feel like I failed. I wanna give up. I feel broken and lost… it’s my fault that I am losing my baby. I put a smile on my face in front of everyone but deep down inside I’m screaming… idk what to do.