was this r*pe??

TW ⚠️ SA/R

me (f18) and my boyfriend (m20)

we are in a long distance relationship and see eachother every 2 and half 3 months.

he recently visited and I was ending a medication I was taking and ended up getting some withdrawal effects.

I was pretty ill so was in bed with him a lot cuddling and watching youtube and movies together.

about 2 days of the withdrawal I finally woke up not feeling so unwell like I had been and wasn’t violently trying to vomit so I was having a pretty good start to the morning, he woke up a little while after me and said that he was glad I was doing better and we cuddled some more and talked for a bit until it got kinda heated, he asked if I was up to have some sexy time and I had said no, because I wasn’t feeling into it and that I was worried that it would make my nausea come back, he said that I would be okay and that it would be quick and if it did come back then he would stop and look after me.

we kept going back and forth on this for a while (he was trying to touch me at this point and I was trying to push him away a little) but I was too tired to fight back or get into an argument so I said okay fine we can and then he got on top of me and we started having sex. It was alright and I did end up enjoying it when I knew it was coming to an end but I felt horrible after. I acted like everything was okay throughout the rest of the trip but now he’s home it’s the only thing on my mind.. I haven’t told anyone apart from my best friend and he said that he pushed the boundaries and it was practically rape but if I was still unsure that I should maybe look for another opinion.

I hope that you lovely girls can help me and give me some of your opinions ❤️

thank youu xx

- Charliee