so insecure

I’m not asking for compliments, i just don’t know what to do any more about my insecurities. I have people tell me i’m pretty but I feel like a catfish and that I look like a man. I have a huge nose and tiny lips and i feel like i’m just a pig dressed up. i compare myself to others all the time. i feel like that audio of the girl screaming “i want to be a pretty girl” and then the lady saying back “but you’re not a pretty girl”. People compliment me but I genuinely feel like they just feel bad for me and i’m a fucking ogre. Im just ranting because I just need to get my thoughts out and i hate dumping on my friends because it sounds like im just asking them to call me pretty, but im not. i’m just so stuck in hating my looks and sometimes i just need to vent and cry about it and have someone understand that feeling of self hatred. I feel so fucking ugly.