Idk why i feel this way. I use to have a toy and used it a bit. Then i felt shameful and threw it out. And now i wish i had it again. I mean i know i can just pop into walmart and get another one. I get into the mood and wish i could use a toy but i get shameful at the thought of going into town for it. Theyre also locked in a case so id have to ask for a worker to get one for me. And thats actually super awkward. Why do i feel so shameful when theyve always made me feel good?