Hi, I am pregnant with my third baby. I had two inductions, but no epidurals for either

both traumatic in their own right- but the last one happened so fast, I was only laboring for 10Hrs when I pushed him out it took less than 5 minutes. Ever since I found out about this pregnancy when I even think about my baby,

all my body can do is remember the physical pressure in my pelvis, crotch, and butt that came in labor and delivery *TMI*

I ( I know I’m just sensitive & it’s really psychological) but I get the exact same pain/pressure (for just a flash moment) in my bum as the last time I had to push: grrr why am I suddenly fearful? Anyone else have this occur n how can I get over this anxiety ;-;