Struggling

Hi all

In my social group there is a lot of people who are pregnant. We have been trying for 7 months 😓

We have a group chat and they make arrangements to go out but I physically can’t bring myself to go.

I can’t bring myself to be in a situation where they talk about their happy news and there has been so much going on with me lately that’s not great that I know I will feel anxious and lonely even in a group of people.

When I say this out loud it sounds selfish , but I can’t help how I’m feeling 😓 not sure what to do but I’m worried I’m pushing people away 😪