Maybe walking away is best.. be easy on me plz ladies 😿

Me and my boyfriend of 8 month have had a rocky relationship.. I would like to indicate some things …

He called it cheating where this is not happening, I have a friend whom just strictly my friend , he does web design.. great guy ! We typically go out for drinks to catch up about nerd things , never ever tried to date ever ..

He created my business logo for my business!!’ Well I met someone , which was great but he went through my phone to find out there was prior plans to go eat with my friend who is a web designer . Those plans were already in place in fact I asked my friend about creating my Boyf a web design logo as well .

My Boyd said I cheated on him…

Another scenario- I have a deceased daughter that passed away from Sids, me and her dad talk around her death day every year which is 2x days before Mother’s Day .

My boyf is hell bent on me not talking to him like ever , I get it you’re not supposed to keep up with exes however in this case it’s truly about our deceased child. It took a lot from us as he was in the military during her death .

My boyfriend asked me if I talk to him I was honest and I said no because I don’t , later that day my child’s dad called me via messenger on instagram since he’s blocked on everything .. we talked for 40 mins . I felt okay . I deleted messenger app because I have no reason to keep it on my iPad , I must say I didn’t have messenger on my phone because I just didn’t dl it .

Fast forward he accuses me of a lot of things to the point it’s exhausting, he consistently says he’s only asking a question but it becomes accusations. Ex -why am I hearing this , why are you breathing like this , what’s that noises I’m hearing ..

I broken myself, had mental breakdowns nd all he could do while I’m having them is to ask me or tell me “I feel like your talking to someone else,”

Now we argues and physically fought each other so much I just don’t see it moving forward even if we have forgiven another for our physical altercations it loops back to the verbal abuse and calling me a liar .

I’m now having to move from my new luxury apartment due to him. My neighbors heard me screaming stop hitting me , so police came nd I went to jail , why ? Because I defended myself nd took blame (stupid)

I must end this with he does consume ecstasy/XO pills as if they were Tylenol , we all know what’s in those pills which can play a huge factor in your cognitive function…

He swears he hears me on the phone with his friends , or heard my car door close twice , even went as far as questioning me about water being in my silicone douche bottle .. insinuating that I used it after cheating (because I only use that one after sex) unfortunately water lingers in silicone for a bit . So did use it but two days prior so I’m not too sure why there is water in there .

I really want to work things out but one step at a time and 1 would be for him to get clean/sober . I must say he’s very , overly emotional, almost concerning . He mentions me having friends to talk to and how he doesn’t , that’s not my fault . ..