Does me going over my bf’s house mean I don’t respect myself? 🤔

My parents are sooo conservative and annoying 🫠. I’m TWENTY TWO (22) living overseas and I never tell my mom anything like this because she is controlling and she thinks she always knows what’s best. My mind is clearer when she’s not involved. Somehow she figures things out by baiting me basically asking questions that I have no room to stay vague (she somehow knows when I lie). I’ve been dating this guy for a bit over 2 months. And I’ve been going over his recently because we’re LDR. I only see him like once a month. It’s less expensive to just stay at his than get a hotel. I haven’t told her bc she’s so judgmental and makes me feel like I’m making the wrong decisions all the time. She keeps saying I don’t respect myself and he’s never gonna love me if it’s so easy for me to go over his this early. That I shouldn’t even kiss him yet. All types of stuff brining up my past “wrong” decisions saying that bc I chose to do things my way instead of listening to her that’s why it failed. That she’s looking out for my best interest. I feel like I’m living her life sometimes and need therapy now because i literally fear making decisions on my own.