Sex life after first baby

I am 9 months pregnant with my first. I have hated being pregnant and my mental health is kinda in the tank right now.

One factor of this has been my husband refusing to have any kind of intimacy since getting pregnant. And I just keep hearing from other women how after their husband sees them give birth, he can never look at them the same again and their sex lives basically never recover. This has also been made worse by the fact that I saw he was looking at a Reddit that was literally dedicated to “skinny bodies with big boobs” and I am definitely NOT skinny and was never skinny before I got pregnant. Like size 22 fat.

I just feel like absolute trash honestly. I feel so ugly and uncomfortable and like I will never get my old self back. My stomach is massive and covered in stretch marks now. My nipples are HUGE and dark already. I was already insecure before getting pregnant and now I just feel certain my husband is going to cheat on me. How can he just not have sex at all for the past 9 months?

I’m at the point where I don’t know if I want him in the delivery room just to salvage any chance of intimacy after baby comes. Does anyone have experience with this?