Feeling emotional numbness

I’m 37w. Delivering any day. I have posted before that I’m waiting to deliver then I will be leaving my husband. But I just can’t wait. I’m torn. I don’t want to leave my comfortable house. My son has everything here. But, I am pretty sure he cheated this morning.

I warned about a female at work that gave her number. One day she text “really you left without saying goodbye “. Then last week she called him after he got off work. Mind you he gets off at 430am. I think they are same schedule too. I asked him about it and for days he goes off on me, gaslighting me. Keeps pushing the issue that he shouldn’t have to share location. We’ve been sharing location for years. Only time he wants it off is for a girl. He got with another co worker years back. So he would share location up until he gets off work. It would say “location expired” one day he was late and I told him I knew he was up to something. Now he just doesn’t share it.

This morning he comes home early. He said he was tired. He is a guy who never leaves work early or misses. Sure enough phone bill shows texts between them at 350am then a phone call.

How can I stay any longer. For him to cheat days away from our son being born. But I don’t want the drama either of the birth. Like do I let him be there for delivery? What if he tries leaving with the baby? I’m so confused.

Just venting and spiraling

Update: got the proof and left the next day and not looking back! He didn’t even fight for me. He’s done as well.