TTC after 1st miscarriage

This time last year my partner and I were ttc and we were successful but unfortunately at 5 weeks we miscarried. It was devastating and for months I’d cry because all I wanted to do was try again but he wasn’t ready. Then I realized I wasn’t ready either I was just heartbroken and needed to heal first. It’s been a rough year but we’ve decided we are both ready to try again. My fertility window begins in a day according to the app but we had unprotected sex today and my fertility is still high. I’m sure we will try again when I’m fully in the window. I just feel very nervous. I’m scared of having another miscarriage which makes it really hard to be excited. The first time I was pregnant we were so excited we bought two outfits immediately and I got a little pacifier. But now I feel hesitant and have to remind myself don’t get your hopes up. I wish I didn’t have to live my life like this. I wish I could feel comfortable telling my friends and family when I find out instead of waiting to make sure the baby stays. I am so excited to try again and I do feel like I would be able to handle it a bit better but I just really hope everything goes well