i do feel like this can be helped with therapy but i simply cannot afford it. soo i resort to <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">eve</a> in hopes y’all can help me from your personal experiences (pls)🤍thank you in advance.

i was in a relationship 7 months ago with a man who lied and used me. he quite literally lived a whole different life that i knew nothing about. i have no idea who he truly is. i won’t even get into it, just know it was bad and he’s a narcissist.

but now i am stuck with the trust issues. i know i am a valuable woman. i did a lot, too much, for that man with nothing in return. the way he treated me, i feel disposable. i feel like it’s easy to mean nothing to someone (romantically). it’s like i know i am worthy, yet my subconscious believes otherwise. ANYTIME a man speaks to me romantically, i believe everything he’s saying is a lie. i believe they’re playing me. i believe they have 10 other women lined up. i believe they’re telling 10 other women the same thing.

i don’t know how to shake this. i dream of a beautiful life with a husband and children and a marriage that i fight for. yet i feel like i will never be able to accept love again. i am terrified. i truly don’t know how to heal. it’s been 7 months. i have been 7 months man free, and yet i still feel the same. i am still filled with rage. i am still filled with fury. i want him to suffer.

but my thing is, i want to not care. i want to be above the situation. i want to release my anger. i want to rise above.

yet i don’t know how. yet i am still filled with anger and resentment. yet i still want to get revenge. yet i still suffer from trust issues.

i am simply at a loss. i don’t know how to move on from this. but i don’t want to bleed onto someone from a wound someone else gave me.

i just don’t know how to believe in good men again. i don’t know how to trust again. i don’t know how to love again. do i need more time? is there something specific i should be doing?