I’ve been nervous to post this because of judgment and afraid to let certain ones to get in my head but I’m gonna rip off the band aid and see what happens.

I recently got married 4 months ago, my husband and I have been together for 4 years. We have a child together as well. We have our differences and issues like any other relationships but just to be clear I wouldn’t trade it for anyone else. He’s literally my best friend, the best dad I know, and a great supporter.

Two years ago I received a follow request from an old FWB, I accepted it and immediately received a messaged as well. I know I know what you’re thinking… “Why? You’re in a relationship and that’s wrong”, it’s not an excuse but we were in our roughest time together like constantly fighting and on the verge of a breakup. So that curiosity kicked in and see what did this guy (old FWB) want, he was asking how I was doing and apologizing for his faults of our fallout. This particular FWB I liked him a lot and wanted more, well he didn’t. So he continued on and said he wanted to start over and that he’s ready for a relationship and see where it goes. I was flattered and that 2018-2019 girl always wanted that from him but the hurt was there. Let alone I was still technically with my boyfriend (now husband). I told him no and wished him the best. I told my husband about it when it happened and came to realization at the moment we have to make it work.

For the first few months I only kept him because I wanted him to see how moved on I was, engaged then pregnant. After those months I’ve forgotten about it and just assume he will block me or unfriend me one day. I barely noticed since. Until this week he’s been posting about sports and what not. It dawned on me like wow we still have each other on social media.

This is my curiosity…. Why does he still have me? It can’t be that’s he’s keeping me in his back pocket because I’ve moved far along with someone else. He literally still watches my stories but won’t like my posts. Doesn’t that hurt to watch an old friend you had relations with, moving on? If it’s the other way around I couldn’t watch his life like that it’s too weird for me. A part of me wants to unfollow him but I don’t want to give the impression that I have bad blood with him. Or should I just block because at this point there’s nothing more between us anymore?