Life after graduation

I currently just graduated high school and honestly I have no idea what to do.. I wanna be a esthetician but I feel like that can wait like I need money you know.. I’ve been thinking about welding but I’m kinda scared I’m so girly and I’ve never used any power tools before I know money doesn’t have a gender so I should believe in myself idk what I would go to college for and another thing holding me back is how bad I am at math I just don’t know what to do I’m scared and stuck I’m taking a gap year though to figure it out but everyone has been getting on my last nerve with the don’t stay out too long like .. if you want something your gonna go get it like this is my life and I can take my time… is there any advice lol I’ll take any or hear anyones story