TWW is the worst!

So, a little back story. I have Endometriosis, PCOS, and a bicornuate uterus. I’ve had 6 miscarriages, 5 pregnancies. My 2nd and 3rd were twins. My husband and I have been together going on 5 years. We recently started TTC, and I’m currently in my TWW. None of my previous miscarriages were with my husband. Yesterday was 9 DPO and I felt a lot of faint cramping throughout the day. I never had implantation cramps or bleeding in any of my pregnancies. I also have been constipated today and that never happens (I have IBS). I don’t want to talk to my family and friends about it because most of them have been through all my miscarriages with me and although I know they would all be happy, I don’t want to find out I am pregnant and then have to turn around and tell everyone that I lost it again. Anyway, I just wanted to tell someone about it, thanks for reading.