So first of all, i’m a highly sensitive, socially anxious, shy, autistic, and anxious woman who get easily emotional and anxious over anything.

And it’s not like my parents are abusive or anything, they’re not perfect but at least they weren’t abusive(expect that i got spanked as a child which was bad, but it didn’t continue).

But since i’m very sensitive, i often dream about being comforted and taken care of by my comfort characters, while i’m crying myself in my sleep. Especially if i’ve experienced some dramatic moments, being yelled at, or after some arguments with my parents. I hate someone raising their voice at me, i get very uncomfortable, i flinch, and i’m about to vomit.

I don’t know if it’s because i want relationship, since i’m aromantic/asexual, and aren’t romantically attracted to anyone, and don’t want marriage or relationship either.

Am i the only one who feels this way?

PS: I had some past trauma with people pleasing and abuse from my make classmate, my sisters epileptic seizure, and being yelled at. But yeah, there’s many things that triggers my anxiety.