My husband and I lost our first pregnancy 5 months ago, since then several of our loved ones have found out they’re expecting and I’m just really struggling with the conflicting emotions of being so overjoyed and excited for them but feeling this heavy sadness at the same time. I truly am so happy for them, but there is this thought that keeps popping up in the back of my mind…I do feel jealous and like it’s not fair and I HATE feeling this way. It seems so ugly and awful and I am not that person. I feel like it doesn’t help that one of them conceived essentially at the same time we did, so seeing her belly grow and hearing her updates just reminds me of what could be, and what it feels like SHOULD be. I dunno, just needed to vent I guess and maybe hear from anyone that can relate to these emotions