long story short my best friend died right before my 13th birthday from accidental overdose about 6 frkin years ago. when i found out she died it quite literally felt like my heart broke. i feel like i died with her. no matter what i do i cant stop missing her and crying. everyone seems to have moved on. on top of that her mom killed herself in november last year. im so scared and angry.

for the first time in a long long time i looked at a picture of her and said “i miss you” i automatically started to cry so then i said it again.. and again. and here i am trying not to cry so loud so i dont scare my sensitive dog but im SO SCARED. i dont want anyone to leave me forever like they did. i cant even look at my 1 year old sister without walking away in tears cause i worry so damn much.

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kinda random but this song reminds me of my best friend. RNMYB forever 14.