My dad was diagnosed with Idiopathic Pulmonary Fibrosis in 2021 after he had a cardiac arrest and survived. The Dr said he could have 5 years to live if lucky from the IPF. It has been a long road, and I’m afraid we are starting to reach the end 😔 He has had a feeding tube in his stomach since March, and has been in and out of the hospital since January from bouts of pneumonia, and blood infections. He only weighs 100lbs now.

He got Covid July 13th. Last week the ambulance took him to the hospital because he was dropping to 60-70s on 5liters oxygen at home. The pneumonia is gone, but now he has Covid lung on top of his fibrosis. He drops to 60 just trying to stand up in the hospital to use the commode next to the bed. They put him on high flow 15 liters to bring it back up when that happened. He is back on 5 liters but any movement at all drops him to the 80s. Even peeing in a urinal in the bed drops his oxygen.

My dad has had a bad back since 1996. He has scoliosis, spinal stenosis, bulging and deteriorating discs. He has been on morphine for a couple years for it. The hospital has added Xanax to keep him calm. The doctor said the combo could give my dad a heart attack, but really the main thing is keeping him pain free and comfortable/calm. The doctor told my mom and him yesterday that he advises a DNR because my dad’s body couldn’t handle it, and he most likely would end up on a ventilator and possibly vegetative state. The DNR made me lose it because I know if something happens that’s it. It’s over and he’ll be gone forever.

If he comes home he is being put on palliative care. My dad is only 63. He just became a grandpa 4 months ago. It breaks my heart because he, and all of us are being cheated out of so much time. His dad lived to be 90. My other grandpa is 87. He should have another 10-20 years.

My dad has waited so long to become a grandpa and now it’s being ripped away. My son is going to miss out on him, and it makes me so sad. My dad was/is the best dad, and already is the best grandpa. My dad cried when he seen him yesterday because I know he doesn’t want to leave him or us, and he is so scared.

I’m so scared at the thought of losing my dad even though I know it’s coming. I’m scared for my mom because the thought of her losing my dad crushes me. She has been through so much even with losing my brother( her 31 year old son).

Being able to never talk or hug my dad again, I just can’t process it. I know he’s still here but he’s slipping away. I don’t want my daddy to leave me 😢