Hi I’m 41 nearly 42 in September, I have 3 beautiful children from my previous marriage, which a horrible abusive ex husband. I finally left him in 2018 and didn’t believe in love but I met a wonderful man who accepted my 3 children as his own, he didn’t have any children of his own or ever been married though had long term relationship but also had bad experiences, anyway we got married within 7 weeks of knowing each other and this October we will be celebrating our 4th wedding anniversary, we do have a beautiful little girl together who is nearly 3 years old, we have been desperately trying for another baby together but it’s just not happening and it really hurts because when I was in an abusive marriage I had no problems getting pregnant but when I’m happy and in a good place I’m struggling hurts me so much because I would love to give him another little baby, I had a private fertility check done and the only thing they said is that I have low amh levels for my age bracket, I have now started to have irregular and light periods, everytime I get my hopes up I get disappointed, this month I’m late again which isn’t unusual for me, but I’m really hoping that just maybe I’m pregnant this month and I really want everyone on here reading this long message to wish my good luck and baby dust for me, because you just don’t know who’s blessings given can come true so everyone please wish me luck this month and btw going away this week to Cornwall so trying not to think about anything negative or about being pregnant but still can’t stop myself so I thought I’d have one last rant to you all lovely ladies and stop thinking about it..sorry for the long essay I’m now going to stop.I wish everyone good luck in the journey I know joe how difficult it can be..😢