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so i am a very sexual person and am always horny and my guy bsf i hook up with always says im freaky but once we hang out i cant get out of my head. like especially like backshots and stuff i get so in my head i forget to arch. or head i try to give him head and he says its always good but i dont do enough bc i dont now how to feel confident enough in myself to be spitting on it or looking up at him or anything. any advice?