Hello, so I am pretty sure I had a miscarriage, not confirmed by a doctor yet. We are on vacation in florida and I am supposed to be 6 weeks 2 days. This was a surprise pregnancy, we were not trying but I think what makes this worse was when I tested, it was two days after my father passed away from cancer.

It all started last night 8/13 when after dinner I got a cramp, I went to the bathroom because I had to go and what I saw was a spot of blood. Obviously I knew it could happen but I freaked out because I’m a very anxious person. I called out to my husband, I called my midwife, and my mom.

It was light throughout the night but when I woke up this morning my gut wanted me to go to the ER. So today 8/14 we went to the ER and had ultrasounds, bloodwork, etc. the ultrasound looked good and I was measuring 5 weeks and 5 days which was pretty close to what I was supposed to be. My hcg levels came back 1098 which they said was a little lower then they would like. We got back from the Er and I decided I was going to take a nap with my daughter. I woke up from the nap, sat up, and felt something come out. ( at this point I am also cramping and having light bleeding still)

I went to bathroom cause I had to go and braced myself for what I was about to see. Sure enough there was blood and it was a lot. My pad was COVERED and it soaked through my pad onto my shorts. The toilet water was red as well. At this point I knew for certain I had miscarried.

I will be getting bloodwork done on Monday when I come back from vacation to check my hcg count and confirm the miscarriage. As of now I am having the cramps still and light bleeding.

A friend of mine told me that the best way to get through this is to talk about it with people who have experienced this. Ask questions, know their stories and connect with them.

I know that this is probably for the best and that most likely this happened because there was something wrong. I know this is Gods plan and he is taking care of our angel baby. If you could answer my questions and tell me your stories I would deeply appreciate it.

How did you get through this storm? Any natural remedies to help me calm down and get me through this tough experience? I am obviously going to give my mind and body A LOT of time before trying for our rainbow baby, but since I am very anxious I am terrified of this happening again, I guess what I want to know is how do I keep myself from worrying and stressing over another pregnancy. I am thinking maybe therapy would especially help if I were to get pregnant again just to talk to a professional and tell them my worries.

Thank you for taking your time to answer my questions and to tell me your stories ❤️