Sad and Scared

mariana

Helo i’m 18 years old, i’ll be 19 soon. i was supposed to get my period about 5 days ago but it never arrived. this is very unusual because i have a very regular cycle and never really have late periods. obviously i was worried i was pregnant (which would be awful bcs the father would be my ex boyfriend, we broke up like 3 months ago and have been hooking up since we’ve broken up, he was my first love and first and only intimate partner, but he is incredibly apathetic and just a sucky dude in general) but i tested negative twice. i took these tests when my period was like 2 days late and haven’t tested again. i have been cramping for several days now mostly on the right it feels like it’s in my hip bone kinda. it’s not excruciating but it is definitely uncomfortable. i also got this weird stabbing pain in my breasts the day before my period was meant to arrive and they’ve been a bit swollen since. today after being 5 days late i’ve started spotting, the blood is kinda brownish like when you’re on the last day of your period (today would be the last day of my period actually)and the spotting is veryy light. i am very confused. i am worried. i am scared. and i feel so alone. all i want to do right now is cry. i haven’t slept either like at all i’m so tired. my mother says it’s just old blood that i just missed a period and that everything is fine. i don’t know what’s happening to me and i’m scared. i should probably see a doctor right?? like the gyno or something?? i hate doctors and the gyno!! if anyone is out there and maybe u have the slightest clue please please please help me out. I AM SO SAD AND SCARED!!

guys what is happening to ma body is this second puberty can someone pls tell me it’s all gonna be fine. 😭