I have been dating my ex for five years. We broke up last month because his family does not approve of me and they want him to be with someone of his own culture. We tried, everyday for five years he asked and prayed his family will see the love we have for each other. He was stuck in a position where he was having to choose between me or his family, daily. I knew it was tearing him apart, being with me. I’ve tried asking so many times why are we still together if one day it might just end? Why are we trying for something that has no promised future? He hated those conversations and never wanted to talk about it or our future. He would always just say what’s keeping us together is love. The love that we have for each other is so strong and we can’t lose each other. It looks like that love has been lost. It’s been a month and I haven’t seen him. He doesn’t check in on me, I have checked in on him. I know it hurts him, but it hurts me too. I thought he was strong enough to break his cultural barriers with me. Part of me thanks and forgives him. I thank him for being the best man to ever walk in my life. He treated me with kindness, respect and love. Everything i’ve prayed for was him. I thank him for letting me go, knowing he will never be able to give me what I truly want. The other part of me wants to hate him. Hate him for showing up, loving and continuing this relationship with me for 5 years just to end it and never see me again.

He has told me that he wants to be married to someone of his own kind and start having kids in the next 3 years. We were together for five. I hope she doesn’t take it for granted because I would have done anything to be her.

I am completely heartbroken.

If someone can please give me some words of encouragement I would really appreciate it as I feel lonelier than ever. He was my best friend.

Please do not bash me for staying for as long as I did.