I gonna make this as brief as possible. I recently watched ‘It Ends With Us’ and read the book by Colleen Hoover. Since, I have been seriously contemplating on if I’m going through an emotional and mental DV experience. Well my manager at work had always separated work and personal with me and been like a big brother to me, so I confided in him one day about my relationship. And now I feel like I’m experiencing gaslighting and emotional abuse from him. I feel like I’m not catching a break, and maybe I’m over-exaggerating, but I want to just go numb to my relationship and my work because it’s SOOO much easier to not feel anything than it is to confront all of this and feel the emotions. My manager just told me “I thought you were smarter than this but I guess you’ve proved me wrong and will be just another small-town girl who got knocked up by her high school sweetheart and is stuck in a marriage with no romance”.

Let me preface, I am NOT pregnant. He was speaking that about my future if I continue on with the relationship. But like he cut me off and jumped to conclusions without hearing the whole story. There is way more going on than what I will type out, I just feel so confused and surrounded no matter where I turn. Even my best friend/coworker told me “you should’ve known better than to say that in front of him, you should’ve kept that to yourself”. My bad if I wanted to get some things off my chest with people I thought I could confide in!!

Thanks for reading, rant over. 🤗