I’ve been struggling to sincerely enjoy life and be happy. I’m not happy with the way my life is. I’ve noticed that things that should bring me joy does not. Times when I should have fun I isolate and it becomes a blur or a time that I regret doing something different. I’m not feeling in love with my husband. I don’t have much interest in anything. I’m not happy with where I am in life. Here I am at 4:48am. Feeling so down. Memories of things rolling around in my mind, negative things, overthinking, regrets. Therapy is too expensive where I live and the online apps I’ve tried really don’t help much.