Hey.. so I just need to vent and hopefully someone that has been through my situation or anything similar can give me some advice.

I have been dating a man 15 years older than me(he’s been divorced and has 2 kids) for 6 years now. We both live separately but during his divorce he lived with me until he had to get a place so his children could come visit. We had a big break up about a year and a half ago due to not progressing in our relationship. I have so much love for this man but I expressed to him how I needed more especially having spent years with him. I told him I would eventually want to get married and atleast have 1 child and buy a home together. He(at the time) agreed and told me he just needed time to sort out his finance. And I naively continued this relationship with him for another year and every time I had mentioned it buying a home or when were we going to finally make the big move and progress he gave me the same answer of “he needs time”. Long story short during our anniversary dinner I had to ask ( because it was weighing so much on my mind and heart), if he thought our relationship would be a long term one and he told me “yes….but sometimes I don’t know…”. His answer crushed me but also made me realize I might have been wasting my time all these years so after dinner we went back to his place and I just couldn’t pretend things were fine after our conversation at dinner. I told him I did not want to be in the relationship anymore if he wasn’t sure about us being long term. I have dedicated so much time and effort into our relationship and I feel as if he should know without a doubt after 6 years if I’m his “person”. I truly believe he is damaged from his divorce because his main concern was “him starting over and getting married again and what if he get divorced and he is left with nothing again” but I get his reality but I think its also not fair to me :( ( I made a decision to chose myself because I want to get married and have a home and try to have a child and I’m turning 32 next month and I don’t want to stay waiting another year then another year for someone who is indecisive about a future with me) <\3