i’ll start with i have borderline personality disorder— so i have a crush on my coworker (guy), mind you ive been identifying as lesbian for the past 2 yrs bc i could never see myself dating a man again. so this crush was weird to me but at the same time, im asexual but i had a huge hypersexual phase, so im like ok this could work. id slight flirt w my coworker here and there, etc, sometimes we'd smoke together (smoking gives me horrible anxiety but id still do it to get to be around him), so today, he flirted with me, but in a way it would go far, like sex kind of far. why did i get so scared? like of where it would go?? like i'm never this scared, idk if it's bc he's a man and i have sexual trauma, or idk. but i got so anxious abt it, i instantly got out of his car and told him i had to go. i hate that i did this bc i gave him signals that i like him and now im running away. i'm so confused with myself