i’ve been thinking of breaking up with my boyfriend for a while because i think it’s for the best. i think we would both would be happier that way, at least i would. we live together and have already signed off our lease for our shared apartment because we were going to move into his parents old house. when we moved in together we moved 3 hours away from all my friends and family, it was a mutual idea. his parents house is 2 hours from my friends. i have to get my own apartment and find a new job and move to a new city, all in 2 months before our apartment is gone. i’m also very scared of losing him and hurting him. we’ve only been together for a year but i have never felt so safe and loved before that it crushes me to think about us not being together anymore. i really pictured us getting married. i’m scared of being alone again and to never talk to him again. i’m scared of how sad and horrible i’m feeling right now and we haven’t even broken up. i have been crying everyday for a week just thinking about telling him how i have been feeling lately. i used to be so sure about my decision, but i just can’t bring myself to tell him. he is the best thing that has ever happened to me and i really don’t know what to do. we’re so different and we want different things for our future, but i don’t want to be with anyone but him.