So like.. I've been chatting up with this guy basically all summer.

Like calling every day for hours as well.

We hadn't met because of distance and work and holidays and I have a kid.. so there were reasons.

anyway we were going to meet up last weekend and like the Wednesday before that, I had a school thing for my kid and I had a sitter coming over. I had forgot about so I arranged this very last minute and kept forgetting about the event so I hadn't informed him.

Anyways like that particular Wednesday, I'm kinda unresponsive, like I told him like I was working then picking up my kid from camp and then making pancakes and then had the babysitter over updates about my day, but kinda short, did include cute emojis so not mean short, just like no time to be elaborate.- HE (the babysitter) was early by alot and I had calculated in some extra time to explain my household to him (I arranged childcare very late and had the option between a 15yo girl and a 26yo guy with lots of experience and a first aid certificate, and I felt more comfortable sending the latter home in the middle of the night, as I can't provide a ride home because I'm a single mom. He was also actually a REALLY great sitter) So I had this sitter over and my guy is texting me like hey hows your night going and I'm like "I'm socializing with this sitter, I got a school event I'm going to this evening" (I didn't specify the sitter was a guy and I never had the chance to even talk about it even if I wanted to) and then on my way home from the event, which is maybe 1,5h later I saw a message where he was very dry asking how it was going, and I told him like good, I'll hyu later. Because my sitter is literally on the clock and I want to get home and get that sitter out of my house and call him like.. it's become a daily thing and I missed him yk.

Well I'm home and he never even read it. So I ask him if we can call and also left on delivered, I assume he fell asleep though I notice he's turned off location sharing (which he had on the entire last month and was often referencing to) so that was odd but I didn't think much of it, like.. I didn't have mine on, I think that is too much control within 2 months of just talking so I think like.. maybe he noticed I don't have mine on and won't put it on so he turned his off. idk.

So eventually I go to bed and when I wake up in the morning I'm blocked in Snap and Messenger (these were the 2 media we've been communicating on) I'm like.. wtf?

I did create a tiktok for him because I didn't have one and he was often sharing tiktoks with me so that was easier I guess but I had notifications off and I did have his phone number, but he's technically abroad so communicating with him is outside of my phone plan.

So I text him like.. what happened?

Then I called him a couple of times. And I sent a long text saying.. sorry, I don't mean to blow up your phone, but I'm really confused here like.. what's going on? Like did something actually happen or did you get like.. cold feet in regards to meeting me, or you met someone else or.. like.. what's going on?

He said he had a gut feeling and that he just knows it was something bad and that he's following his gut feeling and he's definitely not having cold feet and he was looking forward to it and was very very sad and that he wishes me the best basically.

So he basically tried to ghost me because of a "gut feeling". Also earlier, he told me how he feels ghosting is very disrespectful, so he's been purposefully disrespectful to me, because of his gut feeling?

I don't buy it. I told him that as well. He never replied and I thought he might have blocked my number as well? idc actually.

Nowwww.. it's possible he has an acquaintance in one of the apartments in my block, that's not confirmed, he has a vague idea of where I live, but it's a reasonable enough hunch since he's from abroad and he worked in my near area for a while before we started talking (walking distance) and one of my neighbors told me some guys with thesame language /nationality? are living in the apartments above. it's likely they might have connected during his work here? That would make some sense because my sitter came in via the front door. I left via the garage, which basically has it's gate in a different building (I'm in block 7 of 1-9 and my apartment entrance is in building 7 but the garage gate is in building 1) I entered via the garage and the sitter left via my apartment entrance.. So I guess from someone else looking in.. I just had a guy over for a few hours all while I wasn't communicating with him.

either way, I moved on, I don't need that kind of drama and this wasn't mature communication, especially with him attempting to ghost me. It also went in against several things he'd told me previously and some other flags had already been raised in that area. I was sad, but not overcome with sadness like.. I just assumed he just wasn't the person he claimed to be? I blocked him back on everything so he couldn't backtrack on his decision.

ANYWAYS

yesterday I found out he didn't block me on tiktok (I was bored, couldn't decide on a movie and decided to doomscroll on tiktok iso insta or Facebook for once) and I still had an unopened share from before whatever happened. I did end up watching the tiktok and it wasn't anything special and I ignored. So today he sent me a new tiktok. Also something completely unspecial.

Like.. I'm VERY tempted to sending him like *WDYW (his name)?*

But also.. I just should move on and that is pretty aggressive but also.. I'm on my period only JUST and my that is so accurate to how I feel right now.. like.. What THE Fluck DO YOU ACTUALLY WANT?

So I guess I'd be asking if I should or shouldn't send that message?

I feel like the sensible thing to do is to block him on tiktok as well?

I am a curious person and I think I want to know what his deal is.. while in thesame time, I don't want to open that door again.

Sorry, this was so long... Thank you for getting this far 🙏

@Jaszz & gigi

I was lagging just the ONE day and we've been calling for HOURS (3 hrs or more) every day.. idk..? I don't feel that's an excuse.