I should currently be in week six or maybe seven last time I went to the hospital they said they couldn’t see anything and that it would be too early and then they continued to speak to me about if this was a miscarriage. They had me come back two days after an early ultrasound. I traveled an hour and 45 minutes for them to have a conversation with me about miscarriage.

The entire ordeal has made me really sad. I do believe my baby is fine and healthy and those doctors are just assholes.. I went into the ER to get cleared that I was pregnant so I could get my tooth pulled all they needed to do was a urine or a blood test and give me a paper that said I was early or something. I don’t know now I have to wait until September 30 to see my little baby, I’ve been having so much nausea. No cramping no bleeding.

I downloaded about six of these apps. I haven’t begun to use any of them after that experience. The whole thing has led me to not fill out any information on any apps because I just don’t know and every day it hurts not knowing I know it was an early ultrasound 5 weeks and 3 days and I know the possibilities of my baby being fine are there. I just cry a lot. I have a toddler and I would love another baby! Why would scare me so horribly and have to wait so long?

The entire time she kept asking if you want to keep this pregnancy if you would like to continue this pregnancy, she kept trying to schedule me for earlier like she wanted to just take my baby away and leave me empty. My belly is getting big I’m so small I’m 112 and 115 on a bloated day and it is getting noticeable. I don’t want to walk around with a big belly and God forbid there is not even a baby in me. It’s just my mindset.

I’m definitely pregnant and I have not had any bleeding like I said, I have so much anxiety and it has ruined this first trimester for me.