Witchy woman: You are right. I am wasting my time. Idk why I even said anything. It’s obvious I’m wasting time thinking it’ll be something it hasn’t been.

I mean advice may help. Idk. I’m just all over the place.

Me and my man.

We been on and off for 5 years and when we are on we would see each other everyday, 3 days out the week I would stay the night if I didn’t have to work. 3 days didn’t include the weekends and I never missed a weekend to stay the night with him. So, we been talking back since beginning of July. Since July I been over there a couple days out the week and stayed the night every weekend. Well. Idk what’s going on with us. I haven’t seen him since Tuesday so that marks a week. Very weird to me and not like us.

Last Tuesday I left because he was being different. He went to do a basement snake job with his dad for a couple of hours from about 12-3pm that Tuesday. (He doesn’t have a 9-5, he does go on jobs with his dad, which are typically 2-4 hours) so he gets back and he was just so blah. Like the energy as soon as he walked in his living room was suddenly. It was odd, so I asked him was he okay, he said he was just tired. So I ended up leaving. The next day, Wednesday I called him to talk, I just was telling him why I left, he didn’t even ask why I was leaving, he seemed pretty happy, but I told him how I felt about the day before, and he snapped and said “I’m fuckin glad you went home, cause you fuckin irritating and was getting on my nerves” oh and he mentioned that I bother him. I hung up on him and texted him “that’s fine, you glad I went home” he immediately called me back and told me that’s not how he meant it, that he was just mad at me and he meant that we needed our space.

I’m trying not to cry while I’m typing this because I just feel like it’s over between us this time.

Fast forward

Well, I’m now scared to ask him can I come over to see him cause I don’t want to be a bother to him or get on his nerve. So with that, the rest of the week and this past weekend, I didn’t see him. It hurt me so bad. But, I’m so stupid. I thought he would at least want to see me as much as I wanted to see him, I was the one that would always ask but with the things he said Wednesday, I just couldn’t bring myself to ask him. Well it sucks because he didn’t even ask to see me or come over, not even a FaceTime, just texting which was scarce and no talking on the phone. This past Saturday night he went to the studio with his friends to record around 11:30 pm, he said it was going to be a couple hours, mind you, I still haven’t seen him or anything since Tuesday, he told me he was going to let me know when he made it to the studio which was “up the street” (that’s what he said) well he never let me know he made it to the studio and never let me know when he at least made it home, I didn’t hear from him the entire night. I called him a couple of times, no answer and I didn’t hear from him until 2 pm Sunday, the next day. He didn’t even call me back he just texted me “Just woke up.” I text him why not call me back when you seen I called? He didn’t text back after that because according to him, he called me after I sent that text about calling back.

My phone service is off. I know it didn’t go through, he would have to FaceTime audio me or FaceTime video me and HE KNOWS that. That’s what he’s been and I been doing. I didn’t have a miss call from him, he didn’t even shoot a text and say “I called you baby, call me back” remember that was Sunday, so I didn’t hear from him all that sunday cause I thought he was ignoring me and I guess he thought I was ignoring him.

I don’t know what I want from y’all. I guess I’m just venting fr. I just don’t know what to do about this. I feel like this the end of it.