I guess im just here to grieve "out loud" in a sense. We have 2 boys. An almost 3yo & a 1yo. I love them to pieces. Ive always wanted 3 kids. I want a daughter so badly. But im so mentally overwhelmed & exhausted from the 2 kids that we have. Idk how people have 5 or 6 kids (no hate I just personally could not do it). We could afford a 3rd but both my husband & i just cant handle the mental load it takes to parent another. I have also had severe ppd with our last son. From the time he was born til now ive suffered (yes im in therapy getting help). Im devastated knowing i will never have a daughter. We'll never get to use the name we've had picked out for a decade. Ill never have someones hair to do. Ill never have someones nails to paint. Ill never see my daughter on her wedding day. Obviously, i know i could do all of this with my sons but its different (to me). I was really excited that both of my sons were boys. I truly did not have any gender disappointment but i always expected to want a 3rd. Our youngest is still a baby so our minds could change. But i dont think they will. My husband wants to get a vasectomy. Im seriously contemplating agreeing & just accepting that we're done but theres that little part of my heart that doesnt want to be done. Then common sense takes over & i know that we SHOULD be done, for our mental health. All other logistics are in favor of us having a third if our minds ever did change so those arent really a factor.(we have a minivan, we can afford it, our house has room, etc) its just our mental health is suffering SO badly rn. We dont have a lot of help (best helpers are 1hr away). Im sorry this has been a bit of a ramble. Idk where im going with it, really. I guess if youve ever been in this situation give me what helped you!