I’m almost 40, and have had a couple of chemical pregnancies in the last few years. This one has felt more “real” than those did, and I never made it far enough to have bloodwork done like I have this time around!

But we’re on round 3 of monitoring hcg and progesterone (I’m 5 weeks in), and hcg seems to be waning instead of doubling/tripling like it’s supposed to. Progesterone is slowing down too.

I’m trying not to be crestfallen without finality, and am going back to my OB tomorrow for yet another round of bloodwork. When I was younger, pregnancy came easily, and now it feels like it just isn’t going to happen. It’s as though my window has closed.

I want to be able to be excited and not filled to the absolute brim with anxiety. Ughhhhh!