so i recently broke up with my boyfriend right (im 18 he’s 20). our relationship was toxic and just entirely overwhelming. we had been together for about 8 months and i broke up with him because we were long distance and he kept accusing me of cheating and screaming at me endlessly then expecting sex as soon as he got home lols WHAT—-> wouldn’t talk to me for hours if i said no. then we got back together (stupid dumb idiot mistake) bc i thought he changed ? in a month… (yes i feel extremely bitter right now i will explain further in a sec lols) anyways we got back together it started off horribly ofc with not trusting each other and having a hard time understanding why we broke up and what needed to be different and all of that. we were working through it and doing okay for about two weeks and then we were back to the same shit show. we are now at the same school and don’t deal with long distance YET FOR SOME REASON ITS NOW WORSE RIGHT. he has taken it from screaming at me over the phone to in person, telling me that it is inappropriate/rude for me to talk to my mom about our arguments (my mom and i are very close and i didn’t talk to her about my relationship very often), getting mad because i wasn’t putting out enough (always a constant with him but now worse bc he’s always with me), and being extremely disrespectful to my roommates. anyways im exhausted and i break up with him which this time for some reason felt so much harder than the last one. i guess i just really thought he changed himself after the initial break up and that he was fr ready to commit and like step up for me idk? THEN I GO TO GIVE HIM HIS THINGS AND HE IS YAPPING TO ME ABT ALL THESE THINGS: he said “you lost me so”, “i’m excited to start swiping on tinder”, “i’m irresistible i bet if i talked to you in six months we’d get back together”, “you couldn’t pull anyone hotter”, AND ALSOOOO “you’re a lesbian anyways so it’s cool obviously im not the issue here”. NOW HE HAS POSTED A WHOLE DISTRACK ABOUT ME??? saying that bc i broke up with him i lied about ever loving him and that im unworthy of him and other men pretty much lmfao.

so yeah i just cry a lot bc i wanted to be his wife and have his kids but im reality i just looked like a dumb bitch chasing a pos man ykwim.