Back in 2016, my ex and I had been together for five years. I should say that I have bipolar 1 disorder, so my mood swings are terrible. Anyway, back in 2016, I went off my meds, thinking that I didn’t need them. Of course I did, and everything in my world came crumbling down. I quit my job, I was fighting with my ex all the time, and with my kids as well. I had no friends and I barely got out of the house. My ex and I broke up for two weeks before getting back together. I became suicidal, and one the night of the breakup I hit bottom. To get back at my ex, I slept with his 2 friends, which I totally regret. Don’t get me wrong, he also reached out to some girl, but according to him, nothing happened. Long story short, I never told him, until 2020. And for the next 3 years, he would verbally abuse me. He said it was like cheating on him and that I was a bitch and all that stuff. Yelling loud enough so my neighbors could hear. Every single night. Eventually, in 2023 I broke up with him because he told me he wasn’t in love with me. In total, not counting the breakup, we had been together for 12 years. My question to you ladies this: was it a betrayal even though we weren’t together? Did I deserve the 3 years of verbal abuse? And should I have told him back in 2016? Thoughts???