So… I had this friend I was friends with for a very long time. She married into my husbands family (married his uncle) so in the very beginning (8 yrs ago) me and her were super close always talked constantly. Until I found out how she really was, shady and told the whole family everything we’d talk about and even twist my words around and lie. She ended up up apologizing. So it went like that for years! But we still would always make up and find our way back to each other, it’s like I like her and then I don’t. So recently, she told me our friendship has to be in the past and that’s the end of our friendship and usually this happens often but maybe within a couple weeks she would end up texting me trying to reach out again and I’d always allow it. This time is different. She doesn’t want a friendship w me at all. Anyways I would text her about our kids games asking if they want to attended and she would never reply back. Until yesterday… she said “(my name) all do respect can you please stop texting my phone? It’s just to much already. I mean it in the nicest way possible.” And went on to say some other things. & I was like ok. I’m not sure why I want her to be friends w me so badly or why I want her to talk to me still, even though I know she’s been toxic toward me for several years. I’m not sure if it’s because I can see the good in her and forgave her all the time in the past. Or because she’s the only one in my husbands family that actually would talk to me, maybe that’s why I want the friendship. I don’t know. Please don’t be rude. I’m just trying to figure out why I feel this way. It reminds of like… a popular girl in HS everyone wants to be friends with.