I need advice please

Hey,

Im 24 years old and been married for three years. I’m hoping I can gain some insight here because I just feel so alone and hopeless. I had my baby 7 months ago and have suffered with really bad post partem anxiety and depression. I had an emergency c section after 30 hours of labor (the anesthesia didn’t work so I’m traumatized).I exclusively breastfeed my daughter and she is the most beautiful and great thing that’s ever happened to me.

Me and my husband have issues sexually since we got married. He had a sex drive while early on dating and after a year that quickly disappeared. I’ve tried to communicate with him to see what’s going on and what I can do to improve this he always has an excuse like my attitude turns him off, or he’s tired from work ( mind you we both worked equal amounts of hours prior to me having our baby), he’s too full after eating, he’s stressed, that I don’t take care of myself, now that I don’t have a personality anymore since I’ve had the baby and I’m down all the time. I can throw hints and try to get ready or look prettier or be nicer to him but he always gets home to be on his phone watching videos of things he’s interested in like cooking or running. Every time I bring it up he huffs and puffs and is like “ughhh you’re bringing this up again” or “oh my God this conversation again” when nothing changes. He shows no physical attraction towards me and rejects me when I try to initiate. We tried to have sex once post partem but were unsuccessful because I’m breastfeeding and I have pelvic floor tightness after my emergency c section. I told him I’m willing to try to better that and also I can do other things to make him feel good. He’s just completely uninterested. He says that I need to figure something out and get the baby more unattached to me so I can do more around the house, and work sooner. He’s eager for me to work again since prior too I was bringing in the majority of the income and he worked when he felt like it. I’m still suffering with PPD and anxiety and this makes me feel worse about myself and even more helpless. I asked him if we could split amicably so that I can move on with my life and we could coparent but he refuses. I just want to be happy. I am 24 and feel so low and unwanted. I feel like it’s all my fault all the decisions I’ve made have led to this and i just feel trapped I don’t know what to do.