my bf is finally giving me attention but I feel like it’s too late.

I have a lot of posts if u wanna stalk my profile and get more context in our relationship but… basically we’ve been for 4 years. Ever since we were teenagers.

He’s a good guy & I can’t say he’s never done anything for me because he does a lot.

But…

He neglected me a lot over the past few years.

I used to tell him that I miss him and I would ask to see him but he didn’t really miss me back that much.

He also wanted to re-wait until marriage & I did that with him because I loved him.

He also never really comes to places with my friends when I invite him on trips or to places where my friends are bringing their bfs. I understand that there are valid excuses sometimes but… can’t he just make an excuse ??? why is he busy every. time.

Ive obviously expressed that I am upset with this but apparently he didn’t take me serious enough. This has built up so much to the point where I broke up with him. We got back together & now he’s treating me so well & he’s constantly making plans and trying to be involved but I feel like it’s too late.

My bf is a good guy but I’m almost mentally checked out.

What do I do?