Hello, soo my c-section is tomorrow and my anxiety is going through the roof…. Not about my c-section… I’m anxious/scared about the impact this will/could have on my first born…

I’m soo emotional! I spent the whole day just snuggling, loving, playing and doing stuff he likes like going to see the cows and the sheep’s and feeding them, playing with toys, playing outside…. He’s now asleep and I feel this big ball of emotion inside… I know it’ll never be the same but it really stresses me out….

He loves baby’s so much, recently that’s all he’s been playing with… giving his toy baby a bottle, putting it in the stroller even gently patting the baby’s back… I feel like he knows (even if he’s only 21 months)…

I’m also feeling guilty/scared/anxious because this will be the longest time away from him (36 to 48 hours if everything is good)… the longest we’ve Ben away from him is an maybe 12 hours…. And he’s a Mamas boy…. Soo with a c-section I and he will be finding it sooo hard…..

I just needed to vent and some reassurance…. This mama is filled with emotions….