So basically, I was “🍇ed” about five years ago and I am very hypersexual (I never say no or turn it down) but yesterday me and my boyfriend got a big fight and then he tried to initiate s*x after and I told him no that I really wasn’t in the mood but he did it anyway. I was so numb and “not there” I just let it happen and when he was done he didn’t even clean me up I did it..and then he was asking what’s wrong and I told him and he started crying and saying he can’t ever do anything right and all he does is let me down

I feel like it’s myself fault I didn’t try hard enough o stop him….did he ever actually do anything wrong 😣 or am I over reacting idk I’m just completely numb after that and alot of other stuff happening in the relationship.

I feel like if I leave this relationship, I’m going to actually break and completely go numb and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to love again