Don’t know how to feel💔

What a journey so far..

After a miscarriage in March of 2023 followed by an ectopic in July resulting in my left tube being removed I finally thought we were getting our little rainbow, after our first (and only NHS funded) round of IVF we finally made it to 12 weeks.. Or so we thought, at 12+4 we had our scan to be heartbroken all over again and told there was no heartbeat💔

After saving and saving we were able to undergo our second FET which was again successful, however I knew something was wrong. It had again resulted in a ectopic pregnancy this time in my right tube. We then had to make the heartbreaking decision to remove the tube as it was not functioning as it should💔

I feel like such a failure of a woman, I have no means of getting pregnant naturally and my only hope is further rounds of IVF.. I don’t know how to get my head around everything, what if it never happens for me? All I’ve ever wanted to do is be a mother💔