c section vs vaginal?

haylee

is a c section really the easy way out? (i’m not trying to undermine how painful c sections are) the thought of me pushing out a baby literally scares the hell out of me. i did it twice though, for some reason im having a wicked bad anxiety about it for my third baby and id rather just have a c section. i didn’t have any complications and i did have a pretty decent birth but the after birth was AWFUL. My vagina burned so bad, to the point where i was so scared to pee and gave myself a uti. the vaginal pain was terrible when the epidural wore off. the nurse had to give me an ativan because the pain was causing me so much distress and anxiety. 🥲i had no complications with my labors and pregnancies though.

but lately my anxiety has been at an all time high and my heart rate has been a bit high here and there. so im scared to push the baby out seeing how your heart rate goes up when you push. i don’t wanna have a heart attack. i’m gonna do the week long ekg to double check. i’ve been having issues where my heart rate jumps when i stand up from lying down… or jog up stairs and my pulse will feel like it’s beating out of my neck but i can work out pretty intensely and life dumbbells just fine, it’s super weird.