I feel like I’m being punished

I had to have a medical termination due to a silent miscarriage in September. Me and my partner have been trying ever since. I felt for sure this month was it but I’ve been extremely poorly the last few days which seems to have bought my period on over a week early. I feel like I’m being punished even though it was a non viable pregnancy. I’m already struggling with guilt and this is just too much. Maybe I just have unrealistic expectations.